Why now?

So, apparently I have not answered the question of, why now ... a friend told me she was waiting for this answer :)

I was going to answer it in parts ... things God has shown us during this process that have transformed us and the way we view life. I will still do that but to go ahead and answer the root question (for inquiring minds), of why now ... here is the basic answer in its most simple form ...

Because God told us to do it now.

Adopting now was not in our 'plans' for life. When we thought about adoption, we always thought it would be when we were a bit older and were done trying to have any more biological children. And we always thought we would want to space our kids out at least 2 years apart from each other. That was the 'plan'.

'A man's heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps.' Prov 16:9

But, we have always told God that it was His timing, not ours. And last December, surprisingly, He started speaking to me about adopting. We spent months praying. It was confirmed over and over again. And for those months, we wrestled with this. We kept trying to find a million reasons why this was not the right timing. And there were alot of reasons that we came up with :) ... but there was an internal battle that never relented. We were trying to fight what God was calling us to do. We were trying to be 'logical'. Trying to figure it out in our own mind and strength.

When we finally said YES to God, fully surrendered our plan and our family to him, there was an overwhelming PEACE. That kind of tangible peace that 'surpasses all understanding'. There is a deep confidence that comes when you follow Gods voice. Its a confidence that shakes things. Its a simple KNOWING that answers every question in your mind. Because while you may not understand how its going to happen, you know that if God said it, then He will provide everything you need.

And what we know is that God calls us to do things that we cannot do on our own. Things that just don't make sense to anyone ... not even us. He calls us to live lives that are bigger than we can imagine. Its not about comfort and convenience...its not about me, its not about Jeremy... its all about Him. And there is a baby, that is coming to this world ... a baby that God destined to be here for a special purpose at this time ... a baby that God is fashioning and forming in a womans womb ... a woman that has surrendered her comfort and convenience, her plans, for the sake of love ... and that baby has been destined to be in our family, since before time began.

And so, we too surrender our comfort and convenience ... our plans ... for the sake of love. We don't get to control when he comes, but we have the honor of partnering with God in raising this child ... we have the honor of being his parents on earth. And this little boy is a world changer ... and we are so blessed.

So, why now? Because we heard Gods voice and are following Him ... and now is the time to go find our baby and bring him home.